I asked you to hold me
a long time ago
you didn’t or you didn’t the way I wanted to,
I remember these things randomly, unexpected memories traipse through my day that I shrug off,
make a joke about,
a part of me still shivers when I remember the love we made
but that doesn’t mean I want you back
it means you knew how to fuck.
a friend said today that I look so content
I work at this
I don’t chase butches no more. I don’t chase no one no more.
just working on making my dreams come true
and being a good person
and being honest
and saying stop when I mean stop
no when I mean no
yes when it feels right
it ain’t fancy
it’s hella simple
I still love you
I just won’t let that love kill or define me
that’s what done changed.